♥ Your dearest girl,

Saturday, May 23, 2009

11:35 PM

i don't know what to do.
really lost. what the hell you wants me to do?
since we're apart alr then so be it lah.
why keep bothering me with the same old thing that you always ask.
every start & every end you said it.
i keep myself a distance from you, whatever it is i also accept it.
but why the fuck you want to keep on making me suffer?
i had enough in whatever decision you did. in times to come, i did everything i can to avoid you. though i know it's hard. but why! i seriously don't understand. what you wants from me?
just tell me straight to the face. what you want! when then i can stop all those and move on? i don't want to keep pondering around your world. making me face the fact that actually hurting me. i don't know what else i can say. i'm already so fucking lonely, but you actually can make my life even worst. how then i can change my life?
i want to move on. i really wants to!

can someone please just wake me up!
i need my wake up call. since that day you chose to leave, from that moment i know everything's gone. i know i've to face the fact that you actually leave liao. i've to know that i'll be fucking lonely that i got to spend the times alone.
since the time you left, i know i've to face everything alone.
i don't care what it takes to leave the world of yours, i really hate to be missing you. to be thinking of you. i want to make new friends, i don't want to keep myself in your world of darkness. i want my life to be colourful. i wasted so much of my time on you. now that we're over, aren't i supposed to be happy?
but you're fucking making me suffer. why eh. why. why.
i need an answer, i want an answer in things you did. i don't understand why you've to do this to me. i don't know why you actually can do this to me.

tears been waking me up. tears been telling me to face the fact that he's gone.
i know no point crying over spilled milk. really. i know. i understand! but it just don't get through my actions. why the hell do i still care what you doing, how have you been? while working, i've been thinking why the hell happen to me.
i wants to find back myself. i want everything back to normal. i want to forget you. i don't want the dark side coming into me. i don't want to be like emo every where i go.
i'm happy at the start after break up i'm happy! i don't have to quarrel with you. i don't have to be like how i used to alr. but then after a few days. i really miss you so much. i really keep thinking bout you. i can't stop the pain. i can't! i admit i failed.

So sick

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
'Cause right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
'Cause you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice
Anymore

(It's ridiculous)
It's been months for some reason I just
(Can't get over us)
And I'm stronger than this
(Enough is enough)
No more walking 'round with my head down
I'm so over being blue
Crying over you

(Chorus)
And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing
You were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs
So sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calendar I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memories
And now every song reminds me
Of what used to be

(Chorus)
That's the reason
I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing
You were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs
So sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

O-o-h (Leave me alone)
Leave me alone (Stupid love song)
Don't make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
Then lettin' go
Turning off the radio

(Chorus x3)
'Cause I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing
She were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs
So sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(So why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?

i'm so tired. so tired of everything!

i won't disturb your life. so don't disturb mine please.

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