♥ Your dearest girl,
01 september 2oo6 ,
HAPPY TEACHERS DAY !
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30 august 2oo6 ,
dun know why , today felt so high =)) like so happy ? hahas . ><
dunknow why llehs . nth happen also , but just so happy =pp
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30 august 2oo6 ,
firstly , happy birthday alvin -
secondly , i am sianz . didnt go anywhere after school . just walk here walk there, then went home le . so early la can ?!? then after that ,went home do homework wors =))
see ! guai kia jiu shi like this dde =pp
opps ? ! hahas ! just wanna be happy .
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29 august 2oo6 ,
you had force me til i cant do anythingg . eu just made me, nearly jump down .
why cant eu stop stressing me ? why ? eu everytime say i didnt do this. or do that. but eu got see it mahs ? eu never wor . and eu saidd me .
i hhope my mother and father read this :
i know eu caredd abt me , cause i get such results . but this results is last time de . how eu know i never work hard for the coming one ? eu wont know . and eu dun know . and eu said i didnt work hard. eu scolded me so hard ; andd give me that fucking attitude . and said i looks so gangster . said i criedd . i criedd not cause eu scolded me , but eu saidd me when i am NOT in the wrong . why everytime eu must pick on me? at home also like this , why cant eu just dun care abt me , and i would do my best . i realli had enough la can ? is it that eu must realli force me to jump down , then eu can happy ? why cant eu make me du guo my life happily ? and let me stay cheerful instead of everytime sadd sadd de . why ? i will naturely study when its time, eu dun need to force me . the more eu call me don , the more i will NOT listen . ` if you let me do watever i wan , i will study myself , but for now , if you keep on stressing me , i can say . I DIE AND LET EU REGRET . eu will regret . if i have done that , too bad -
eu dun know me .... bbut instead scoldding me ! is that reasonable ? no , its NOT .
thanks dear , thanks for cheering me upp when i need you =))
SADDISTIC `
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28 august 2oo6 ,
its our first month , `280706 . its started all . the day where we become ganlaogong , ganlaopo . finally , after windd windd blow blow . we finally finished one monthh .
firstly to say , happy to have him as my ganlaogong , and also . thanks for everything , that he had given me . thanks for chheering upp , when i need him . thanks for being there no matter i am sad or happy . i wouldd be there to share , he wouldd to0 =))
thanks for the loves he given to me , i loves him lots . my ganlaogong . forver .
and simple as ganlaogong onli . thats all . dun think til too out =xx
i hope he would be there for me when i am sadd, in future .
to MARCUS .
one month hadd past , thanks for everythingg . after so much of windd wind blow blows =))
promisedd to be strong . i hope to be happy . thats wat i ask for , =) you also must be happy . can see that you were sad these days . cheer upp will you ? i very worry for eu la ...
see you like this.. dun know wat to do also .
just wanna tell eu , though i may not be with you all the times , but , i would never forget you , no matter how busy i am ` just know that , you will always be in my hartx , chheer upp =D our hartx are linked , no matter wat happens , i will always loves you and care abt eu . wont ever forgets eu . now will be , will be . =))
yyeaps ; ganlaogongganlaopoforver , 184 .
together forever =))
promise never been brokenn *
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27 august 2oo6 ,
eeee >< today elite . its just wasting money ! never train dao . today is games day , but i onli plaedd 2 games , while others playedd so much la ! so unfair . made me wastedd so so much of money .
saddist ` i have been facing the worldd myself , with onli tears andd no laughter . the feeling sucks to hell . i hadd enough of these things . i wish i couldd die . insteadd of living in the fucking worldd . since the day i step into secondary 1 , i felt that my life is meaningless , and nth i couldd do . my hopes are crushedd , so does my dreams .
i hope i couldd get back to the path , that studys , and have my dream achieved ! i wanna be a badminton player . i hope the dream can come true , i wouldd sacrifices for it !
TRAIN HARDD -
wans to just say ,
afterall , i am sorry .
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27 august 2oo6 ,
yyeaps ; its elite time ! =))
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26 august 2oo6 ,
when out with my mumie today , so fun ! bought lots of things . see everything , nice nice , jiu buy .. wahaha xD ! =)) spent lots of money narh , sianzz ..
lol ! spendd so much , once a while =xx
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25 august 2oo6 ,
he thinking of disowning me . allrites , i am sadd .
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24 august 2oo6 ,
wat the ? today trg is tiredd de la ! physical all the way , + footworks . like ... so tough la .. then in the end run non stop ... leg pain , hand pain . stomach also pain la !
i wanna change , to be a better . i can , and i WIL . i MUST . thats wat i wanna do now , train hardd in badminton , study hard , andd no MORE ~ thanks .
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23 august 2oo6 ,
i got her backk , ERIN LIEW . nu er . i heardd , she calledd me MUMMIE =)
allrites , i was damn happy narh , hope i wont lost her again , my preciouss , baobei ! .
annyway , lost netball . sadd =(( though , i hadd all my hardd workk in . but i still lost . haiz ... team spirit hhadd gone ! sadd .
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20 august 2oo6 ,
LOL . i am sadd . 9.02pm , he saidd that to me . " not willing to " erms , perhaps , that breakks my hartxx ?? or ? hahas . dun know la .. was saying rubbish ><>
ii dun know la . i am just , sadd after hearinng it . just take it that i never saidd b4 . sorry to tell eu that , sorryy . i am confusedd narh ,
`DEPRESSIONN -
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20 august 2oo6 ,
_________dotsss . am i stupidd or ? am i born to be playedd by frens ? being usedd or wat ? just know wat she has done to me , i felt i am more and more stupidd . wat she hadd done to me , makes me hartx felt so painful . as though , i am being stabbed lots of lots of times . it hurts baddly . =((
my hartx brokenn into pieces and pieces , 11.46pm ; i am annoucedd deadd -
my hartx is no longer alive . its DEADD -
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19 august 2oo6 ,
i kept thinking and thinking , am i realli truely loves badmintonn ? i kept thinking bout it over and over . in andd out of my mindd . and finally , i got the answer .
yyeaps ; i admit , i lurbbs it . badminton truely rawks . i cant live without badmintonn , nor can i live without traininggs . i wans to work very hardd for it ! i gonna do that . wont even slack in trainnings . and will be more enthu . wat coach say , i will do . cause , i wanna workk very hardd , and be like jiamin they all . all those seniors . they trained so hardd , and then . now their skills are good til _____ so good la ! i wanna be like them . they rawks .
now the coming event is inter house badminton championship . yyeaps ; i must win , and i will ! i now i can . andd i know i must . i cant lose to anyone of it . cause , I WANS MY HOUSE TO WIN ! i dunn wan ppl to look down on creativity house , i am sure that , others in my house can win too . we will work hardd together , and get the trophys together . we believe we can . and we will =)) .
trainn more and more in it , and train harder ! interhouse badminton championships , i am here . one day by one day , i lurbbs badminton more and more . though , the trainning maybe tiring , and sometimes the trainning ends very very late. like 8.30 or 9 , but . i willing to . i dun mindd . cause of badminton , and sacrifices for it . cause , badminton rawks my life . =)))
willing to work hard for it , not gonna slack . and will jiay0uu for it ! lets together , as a team , and TRAIN HARDD ``
badminton freaks -
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18 august 2oo6 ,
todday went trainning ... LOL =) guess wat , its games day norhx , started off with footwork , then jiu multiples ... then after that is GAMES !
i ddid very lan sia ><>
concentrate on it =))
JIAYOU =))
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to MARCUS *
no matter wat hadd happened. just let it go . i know it maybe very angry for eu . to know that he hadd done that , or wat so ever . but think , the more eu think bout this , the more onli make eu sadd . i mean , angry or wat . the feeling wont be nice , just cause of this matter, this person , and makes eu so sad nor angry . is not worth , seriously . you think bout it . more and more deeply , and you will know . its not WORTH your tears or wat .
you get it ?? i mean , ya , i ddun know the full story , but crapping here. i mean , i wans to tell you something like that . i dun wan eu too be like this you know , see you like this ...
its hurt la ! pls la , understandd my feeling will you ?
no matter wat , i lurbbs eu . lots and lots . my ganlaogong , and forever , will always be my ganlaogong . though i may not be with eu always , but , our hartx are linked . we can feels it . we will always be together , forever . you wil always be in my hartx , never hadd forgotten eu . not once at all , always in my hartx . thinking of the memories when we were together , it rawks .
i dun wan to see you like this , you know WAT i mean . cheerupp =)) ii wanna see your nice smile . insteadd of now . so sadd like that . everything also no mood no mood . aiyo . be happy narhs , ai ni .
lots of lurbbs .
will always lurbbs eu lots .
`gwenndolyn .
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17 august 2oo6,
ganlaogong , i see eu sadd , my hartx also sad .
it hurts seeing eu like this . but eu dun know that . cause , eu never hadd think bout my feelings . instead , beingg so selfish .
it hurts la . seeing eu like this .
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to YILING & ERIN .
dears , i dun hope to lose you all . wat i have done, apologise , its my fault . but i dun wish to , cause wat i have done , lost two precious daughters . and its my ddearest nu er . i promise, there wont be anymore problems . and hope . we couldd go back to the past .
hope you two can forgive and forget . know its my wrongg . but , i hope i wont lose you all just cause i have done that . but , wat ever your answer is , no matter wat , i will respect . hope , you all couldd give me the chance . andd me you all de good mummie again , promised to be a better one . no matter wat will be , will be .
lost two daughters , will be my life's , greatest regrets . my life wont be the same, think of the consequences , dun be selfish . think about my feelings , can you all ? but , no matter wat , take care . i lurbbs you all .
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15 august 2oo6 ,
whhy my mother is so unreasonable ? WHY ? hatedd thhe feeling being accusedd . when i didnt do it . sucks `
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16 august 2oo6 ,
IHADENOUGH . i hadd enough la ! will you all let me off ? i am sttressed . every now and then , crying . tears kept DROPPING * so hatedd the feeling . being stressed by things that is so sily . but just cant let myself not to think about it ~
i dun wanna stay in this worldd . it sucks . so sucks . HATRED -
hadd enough of all these things ; stressed `
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16 august 2oo6 ,
hahas ! today , went to eat lunch with ganlaogong . then went back school studyy . so guai horx =PP then our "kai xin guo " came !
thats , LOONYEW =)) hahas ! he gave us lots of lame jokes . but kinda quite funny ! we bang bang table . shout here shout there. FUN LA ! =PP then jiu talk talk talk le . time flys fast =xx then they go trg le . left me ...
LONELY . the lonely gal . no frens , no one cares bout me . one person . lonely walking along the street . missingHIM* and thinking of him every minute , every seconds , always in a corner , by my ownself . so lonely .
LONELY GAL .
`GWENNDOLYN =(( .
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12 august 2oo6 ,
todday , went out with angela ` and pearlie... was quite funn la ... we went to plaza singapura . then went to most oof all the shopps . didnt buy lots of things , but took neoprints . quite lurbbs the neoprint, trreasuredd the time with anggela .
those neoprint there , was wat i took with her =))
hope to be with her more often =PP
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12 august 2oo6 ,
wa ! today wake upp so so early , just to finishh all projjects andd hhomework .
soso tough la ! hhahas .
`GWENNDOLYN =))
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9 august 2006 ,
went out with marcus ganlaogong . its fun la .. hhaas =) we went to popular . then he gonggong go buy lots of star, rose, all these. to make .. he thinks he very free =PP hahas! then he pei me go take bus go home . so nice of my ganlaogong .
10 august 2oo6 ,
today went out with yiling baobeix nu err . so fun la ..! we bought mirrors , and handphone things.. then went to buy movie tickets ! we watched , " my super ex galfren "
it was nice la ! me and yiling laugh til like siao kias . cause its funny la ! then went home .
`GWENNDOLYN .
lonely *
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10 august 2oo6 ,
allrite , i am tired of it . i wanna start afresh .
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090806 ,
hhope she will still be mine ,
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3 august 2006 ;
9.09pm`` eu made my tears rolled down again . 9.52pm` another breakdown .
i am tired ; i dun feel like thinking abt anything . i just simply too tired . 1 day i realli hope i could just slp and forever wont wake upp . cause , one by one leaving me . they are parts ofbme , but they say wan leave jiu leave . but still , wat can i do ?
can eu all just dun make me felt the hurt anymore ?! i am seriously stressing . i am realli gonna get into depression soon - i realli cant take it anymore `` i am depress .
i realli despo tuhh know the answer , nor reasons ? why must they treat me this way . cause cause maybe my fault ? nor its their fault ? or wat ?! ii just cant stand it anymore ;
i am seriously getting abit depression - jjust cause ofb this . i will die .
can eu all pls dun leave me ? i am realli sad . tuhh lost so many ppl . that i hartx so much .
PROMISE THAT EU ALL WONT LEAVE * SAY THAT TUHH ME -
`DEPRESSION -
`GWENNDOLYN =((
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