♥ Your dearest girl,
I'M SUPER LAZY TO BLOG ,
BUT .. MY BIRTHDAY IS REACHING !
THANKS TO THOSE ,
WHO'RE ALWAYS BESIDE ME ;
LOVE <3 .
* I'm still crying ,
i'm still suffering .
thought the hurt&pain will end when the relationship ends .
but it didn't came the right way , sorrows ~
my birthday is reaching , but i'm once again alone celebrating my alone .
without you , it's alone . myself ..
my tears keep rolling , eversince the day we ended .
i told myself , I'LL BE STRONG & I MUST . but i didn't do it ,
i broke it . everytime i think abt the memories , i'm hurt again .
while you're having so much fun&laughter . i'm suffering much Baby .
help me , you know i need you .
i still loveyou , it didn't decrease .. but yet , it increased much more .
you little bit of love , may last my love for you forever =l
iloveyou♥
say you love me again ..
and i'll be contented ..
&the beauty.
FUCK ALL LAH =.= . enough is enough , each have it's own limit . i doesn't mean , you've your limits i don't have . lol , i'm a human too mind you ?
empaharsizing on THIS , brother thought suppose to be there for own sister ?
as my elder brother , you didn't even cared abt me . then you wanted to pick a fight with me ? like , no link can .
omg . FCUKER . COME ON , enough for me .
i really very sad .
losing a 7years + thing i've fought for , gonna soon come le . yet ,
i lost it . how would you feel ? sad right , and of course ..
it's hard to let go .
nth will work now ,
everything just ended ..
&the beauty.
026AUGUST2007 ;
HAPPYSEVENMONTH (:
to darling . hahas , it's long&sweet . lol ,
allright luh . let me start with today's thing .
went to meet yeeling&xueting at cityhall ,
waited for kelvin to come too . then went SBA then SBH .
supported kelvin& mr quek over they .
they did pretty well =) goodjob both !
yeeling so excited luh =x
haha ! she SHY lah .
that's when the match .
RONALD got play , wah .
LOL , goodgood =D
then comes to yesterday night's photo ,
with darling , have so much fun .
oh ya , and we took NEOPRINTS lah x]
so treasure it .
still got wan lor , never upload . lol ,
will upload the neoprints if possible =)
and i did it ! <333333 them all .
TAKECARE ALL .
I GTG ,
SLPSLP =D
loves '
`GWENNDOLYN -
She♥Him still =x hais .
- i shed tears ,
i cried .
but no one knows ,
i've tears rolling ..
yet no one understands .
But to say , i'm devoted to him .
& i do .
i love him , yet he don't understand ,
it hurts me seeing him this way .
i loveyou =l
&the beauty.
25AUGUST2007 ;
yesterday's trg was allright .
trg gonna stop liao ):
sian lor , cause of exams .
hais . nevermind ..
i've so much fun with yiling&erin yesterday night .
hahas , bought so much things in just 2 hours .
LOL , i spent abt $120 .
thanks Babes , accompany me =)
FUNNNNN `
today ?
went airport at abt 4am ,
then sent dad .
after that , send Tanglin&Spider over to US (:
immigrating there .. so , goodluck !
Godbless you all x]
Trust in God <3
later need go court ,
mummy doing something to the family .
like omg . hais , dunno her lah .
everytime change here&there .
God bless ..
After that , night going out with darling .
celebrations ~
HAHAH <33333 .
FUNFUNFUN .
TAKECARE XD .
picspics .
ended ~
still got alot , didn't upload it .
`GWENNDOLYN -
* lol , i guess it's you yourself .
didn't even know anything , trying to act ?
saded sia , who will ever wan to view your
blog if you don't view mine ? and to my horror ,
you even tagged . what more you wan me to do ?
zzz ,
plaintive for you , wasted .
woeful .. =l
&the beauty.
LOL ?
* If you don't fcuking wanna copy ,
you won't even give a damn to wat i write ?
lol , isn't that gulty-ness . if i ain't good ,
you woulden't be good too . anyway , pls have your
own originality ; come on .
& i think i shoulden't be angry because of you ?
disgrace of the guys ? x]
you just did all these , and degrade yourself mind you .
zzz , tarnish the impression ;
and to think you still can disparage ppl .
know your limits =]
&the beauty.
i dunno who to trust ,
neither do i know who to believe .
i'm being framed , i'm being misunderstood .
i've been accused , but i tried to be the best as i could .
yet i still failed ,
too disppointed , to say anything .
peeps who read my blog ,
i'm sorry i coulden't smile .
seriously , i dunno wat to do .
i've tried to care , but i coulden't .
thanks to friends around me <3 .
takecare all ..
leave me alone ..
* oh ya , pls stop using wat i use lah
fcuking pissed off with wat you wrote .
like wtf ? pls , have your own thinking&ritings .
stop copying others when you've a great mind ?
zzz .
&the beauty.
21AUGUST2007 ;
sorry , didn't blog this pass few days . aww =/ i'm kind of very busy luh . have been chion-ing for english these few days . like , didn't slp for days liao ~ i gonna breakdown soon , physically nor mentally . all going down .. really , and i'm serious abt it .
know what miss LU say when she saw my scrapbook ? SHE SAID IT'S NICE&GOOD . LOL ,isn't that something good =D she say i very hardworking . keep praising me ^^ LOL , i happy lah =l shy also ! HAHA . KAY LAH , i gtg ! it's recess time .
i shall stop blogingggggggg =)
BYE GUYS .
later have inter-house badminton .
after that , gonna go home choing english again ~
these few days shall me angmoh liao .
LOL .
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE <3 .
takecare (:
`GWENNDOLYN -
&the beauty.
19AUGUST2007 ;
lol , days just passed . have trg for the pass days , and also swimming . i really very tired luh x( hais , missed you as much . yet can't tell you , loved you so much .. but have to act like i hate you much . i don't hate you , i don't blame you . yet i still loves you .
thanks to Yiling&Erin , during class pei me .
thanks to Xueting&Yeeling&Pam .. during trg keep making me happy ,
and never fails to make me smile =]
A BIG THANKS to them ♥
allright ,
i admit ; i loveyou .
hard to say , hard to explain .
just a simple i loveyou will do .
tears have been rolling almost everyday ,
nth cures .
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So , what's up ? =D
kay , yesterday got trg in the morning .
swimming in the afternoon ,
and then night went to watch Secret with my brother .
lol , so damn nice&romantic . but some part really no link de ,
but overall , it's nice (:
today ?
it was church day !
hahas , Wilson say he going .
=) goodgood . Serve God , Praise Lord !
so , meeting Wilson later .
Xueting&Yeeling not going ):
they've work to do . alone again =/
awww ! hope they finish soon ^^
shoots leh .
hmm , no more for this week .
due to , finished one series alrdy .
isn't that good ? :D
have more time then !
ALLRIGHT , GTG .
TO CHURCH =p
wil have fun !
PEEPS , THNAKS FOR VIEWING .
&& TAKECARE YEAH !
have fun this weekend .
mugging tml onwards [=
BYEEEEEE .
gwenn♥him =x it's still him .
`GWENNDOLYN -
SADISTIC ` that kills .
&the beauty.
17AUGUST2007 ;
sorry ! didn't blog for so long , i'm too tired to even blog . seriously , i'm lack of time . anyway , let me start the post ..
too much things just happened in this moment , i really brokedown . and , i've .
oh , let me say this .. go to farhana,jialin&sheena's new blog . they're advertising abt wat they have done =) do , go pass by and see . thankyou ..
let me start the real post .. this will be a long POST =)
bear with it .. all my stupid stuffs .
having trg this few days , have vb inter-house also .
okay , so wat's up ?
RELATIONSHIPproblem ;
i still can't accept the fact , that i've lost you .
i admit , i can't get over . & i still loveyou ..
it may not be shown , yet i do . and of course ,
you're always in my mind&heart . i've always been wearing your ring ,
since that day i said iloveyou* . and i promise , i do .
nth can change the fact , yeah .. it's still the truth .
and , how can i ever accept the fact that you're with one of my sister now ?
zzz , i didn't blame both of you .. yet myself .
i did a bad job as a galfren . i was wondering , is it all my fault ?
since the day i brokeup ? seriously , i didn't blame any of you .
and no offence =x . i'm not saying you bad .. i just felt weird .
so why should i drop tears & even think of you ? just because you've carved yourself ... deep in my heart . yet you don't know , and took it that nth happen .
i'm still sorry , for everything i've done , if you think i've hurt you .
then blame it on me , i can't be that good for you .
yet , everything still end the same , with tears everyday , it hurts me .
FRIENDS problem ;
Come on , you're the one that keep changing .
and changed til that kind of person ppl don't know .
and don't regconize .
come on gal , admit if you've done .
and to think , you really did =x
it's so hard to believe it ..
the little memories that i've been keeping it in mind .
so wat's the point of us dropping tears for you again&again .
to think that , we even care that much for you .. you didn't notice abt it .
and you don't even know . so ? we're trying so hard , with ways&stuff . to try to savage this FRIENDSHIP ! nth works .. it still came this way .
maybe , giving up is a good way .. so that both parties won't hurt .
you know how much we used to trust you ? now .. we can't even TRUST you any longer ..
you've been leaded by the Devils .. the never ending devils have brought you somewhere elses .. that leads you like this yeah ? God knows what have happened ! so , get back yourself . as a Christian , you'll never lose out to the evil ones ..
God's power is always larger than them ! BE BACK YOURSELF , FIND BACK YOURSELF !
you just simply changed to a two-faced girl .. ppl are so fearful of you . trying not to get close to you . cause you're SCARY ! you used to be so nice&sweet and caring . a teamate that are so perfect .. but you changed into someone i didn't understand .. no longer .. we won't give in any much , we've give in alot ! seriously , lots .. =/ treasure or not ? up to you . things will not get back the same . change back bah ! it'll be better by then .
WE'LL NEVER SHED TEARS FOR YOU ANY MORE . WE SAID , WE PROMISED .
NEVER - belive it or not , up to you . we've GAVEUP . you forced us to =(
two headed snakes ? get off then .
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allrights ! no more ~
let me go on with better stuffs .
Jiahui treated me&Yeeling&Xueting to sushi =D
LOL , nicenice ^^
let us use food de-stress uh ? =)
so niceeee lah .
omg xD .
picpics !
of those nice food (:
this is those pics .
xiexie ni ,
be by my side ;
through joy,laughter& even sadness !
through thick&thin . thankyou buddy ,
Yeeling&Xueting .
thanks for being by my side ;
since we're teamates ..
found the true friends instead ,
xiexie ^^
today sch had vb inter-house .
wah , shuang lor !
though lost , by score was 13-15 .
like , so damn near !
i helped to have 9 points ^^ super happy lah !
last year lost til siao can ~
this year , lost de hao kan =D
goodgood ! 2a+1a rocks .
HAHA , kay lah .
Mdm Leow wan me join vb ! LOL ,
i'll never . i love badminton (:
takecare peeps XD .
off i go ! to ..
SLEEP&STUDY . nights <3333333 .
`GWENNDOLYN -
she's trying to be happy , when she is not . nobody knows ,
&the beauty.
14AUGUST2007 ;
HAPPYTWO MONTHS TO FARHANA&HE STEAD =)
then go on with ..
sch ? fine lah :D
but i very hardworking today lor , i dunno why eh ^^ keep doing&doing .
but still slept during english , but i still did the work . i swear okay (:
haahh , and stuffs go on .. i'm rather packed today .
erin played the dumb game =p
walao , if i've chose 2 more . it would be him ! =x
OMGOSH. nevermind ~ suan liao ): no yuanfen .
hais .. zzz !
but still . allright . go on to trg , haha .
tired luhs :x physicalphysicalphysical , i'm down soon lah .
i've alot to say today ..
it's the time . when i've to face smth real sad&hard to let go .
it's harder than any decision . even harder than relationships ,
yet i still made this choice . after years&years of hardship .. i still givenup .
it been 7 years when i fought for the place in the team , i told myself .. i'll get&must get into national youth team when i'm 13 . that's wat i told myself .
and to be the best in the sports , i strive-d for 7years ! 7 years ? and i can't imagine .. i gave up , just because of my body . that are so fcuking useless . giving me problems when it's not supposed to . and to my horror , i've forgoe my chance of taking part in the international swimming . ): i can't . i've been waiting for these moments . like hell long , yet i wasn't given a chance to . no , no more . 7 years goes just like that . i can't give up =( i'm still striving til i can't , i'm still trying to be the best . i've done that for 7YEARS , how can i simply just say no ? it's complicated , in the end .. i still have to . like , so diff . i'm too sad , to think abt anything . tears just keep rolling . i've been fighting for this glory , it yet to be happened . the greatest acheive wasn't huge enough =/ i hate it . everything ended ;
my swimming life .
i guess , it's ending soon after the carnival .
will end =(
no one understands .. leave me alone .
i need peace ,
God ; help .
`GWENNDOLYN -
she has been striving very hard , yet no one gave her a chance .
&the beauty.
&the beauty.
12AUGUST2007 ;
i'm just wondering , am i an idiot to you ? ..
&the beauty.
12AUGUST2007 ;
Days pass fast . it been weeks eversince i'm independant** . allrights , let me start with the post today .
i've been swimming eversince i know the carnival is coming nearer .
and so , have to train even hard .
just because of swimming too much , i'm now sick .
keep vomiting and fever ; omgosh .
God help ! =/ can't even slp well , like ? .. hais .
nevermind . hope i get well soon ~
later ? having elite ,
at 3pm =) cause xueting&yeeling can't
make it on the 1pm ,
so go 3 =]
oh ya , ninja is sick .
si ninja , get well soon lah .
zzz !
to the person ;
i guess you know who i'm refering to .
pls have your own coypright .
i just felt fcuking disgusted whenever i see
what you're using , the typing and stuffs .
you used things that are equally the same as what
i used to . pls lah , don't use what i using eh .
it's like , wtf ? see liao , angry ? -.-
ZZZ , why keep copying .
like FCUK can .
`GWENNDOLYN -
She loves God , Jesus ;
&the beauty.
11AUGUST2007 ;
HAPPYBIRTHDAY 3RD AUNT :D .
starting of the day .
have a nice chat with leo .
LOL , idiot ninja -.-
then slept only at 4.30am , like wtf ? so late can .
then i've got lessons at 8am ,
i need wakeup at 6.30am as i need time to travel over .
then damn tired lah , wth .. vomited twice today ):
after that , went home ..
swimming later ~
TIREDTIREDTIRED .
oh ya , to all ;
DARLING is a gal .
not a GUY . so , dun mistaken that i've boyfren -.-
so , went swimming ..
i swear , i pia wan lor .
tired can =x
then nevermind , went play bb with darling .
haha , fun can .
then went home after that ..
nth much today , just fcuking tired =(
i gtg alrdy ~
BYEBYE .
still , ilu :x
`GWENNDOLYN -
NINJA BULLY TURTLE ! =x
&the beauty.
10AUGUST2007 ;
HEYHEY , I'M SO HAPPY TGT ^^ . though it maybe nth lah =x
i felt so happy ,
after giving wat i supposed to .
to one of my sisters (:
i finally can bury the past ,
have a new start of everything =)
always sister#
morning - badminton ~
then after that , went bathe .
then went out with yeeling ..
like , SUPERHAPPY CAN .
omg , like going out with someone ..
that used to be the person you disliked .
and now , it's like your besties ?
it's a nice day okay .
we went bugis first ,
took neoprints =)
then went to the shop she like ,
bought things you liked .
for her boyfriend ; how nice she is .
romantic =]
then after that , walk ard bugis .
found this necklace ..
starting , i saw it .. i thought it was mainly for couples .
cause it comes in heart shapes .. the first impression given was couple .
i was rather interested , so i took a closer look . it was a necklace ,
writen on each half heart , BEST and the other half was IES .
nice lah ! =x i bought it , gave half to yeeling <3333 .
pictures all below ^^
will upload neoprints next time !
those are the necklace's photo . the other heart took with her =)
i think , it's nice lah :X
not everything is for couple ! =p
kay , then go on with my photos ~
me lah =x
ugly .
tatoo being laser-ed off.
lol , painful luh =/
after fun , got swimming .
tired sia . zzz ! then went meet mummy at 9pm .
at amk hub .
she want's to shop ,
so pei her lor =)
i spent $200 plus in 2 hours .
walao , i go die suan le lah .
BYEBYE !
LOVES ~
`GWENNDOLYN -
She loves her special one , only one .
&the beauty.
