♥ Your dearest girl,

Monday, March 31, 2008

2:47 AM

In mac with sis now.

i fainted this morning .
f. not well ! vomited & fever .
giddy spells came , and there goes myself. fall on the ground , when i'm awake ..
all things changed . i realised i'm in another surrounding liao .
hais , so wish you were there by my side .

): all the love was there .
hate that i love you !

studying chem now .

LEFT ,
with loves <3

&the beauty.

6:52 AM

Why did i drag those feelings in ?
i shoulden't have lost .
& darling , why do you've to do this .
i'm trying hard enough , but you don't know.
when you said all these have ended , i was lost .

you hurt me , hurt me bad enough :/
i hate that i love you .

since that you've chose to treat me this way .. what else i can do ? nor say .
even if i want you badly ?
i been holding my anger , sadness & put a joy infront of me . but i'm tired !
i'm really sad .

Lost Without You ;

I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes
A little righteous and too proud
I just want to find a way to compromise
Cos I believe that we can work things out

I thought I had all the answers never giving in
But baby since you've gone I admit that I was wrong

All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie
How am I going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do ...I'm
lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you

How am I ever gonna get rid of these blues
Baby I'm so lonely all the time
Everywhere I go I get so confused
You're the only thing that's on my mind

Oh my beds so cold at night and I miss you more each day
Only you can make it right no I'm not too proud to say

All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie
How am I going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do ...I'm
lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you

If I could only hold you now and make the pain just go away
Can't stop the tears from running down my face
Oh

All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie
How am I going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do ...I'm
lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you

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P.S : it's useless to regret after you've end it .

&the beauty.

6:41 AM

Happy 1 month dear .
but i'm sorry ppl , no more dear .

BRYAN'S gone. ha , believe ? we didn't pull through this quarrel .
yet on the 1 month .
lol , aren't i bad . yes , i'm .

I'M SO LOST WITHOUT YOU , i need you .
sorry , blame it on me.
life's bad , but still have to go on .
i'm fine , still not bad . yet , HARD .

you saw me , but you left me after whispering to me a lil words .
then what's this point abt ? =(
you promised me , you broke it.
i hate that i love you so much.
you got me all those hand made stuff , you left it hanging ard me.
i felt reluctant to throw it away . BUT WHY ? T_T
know how much i need you when you walked away ?
i was shocked , i stoned .
i thought we'll pull through tgt .
but we didn't ! a lil sour , but was terribly hurt by your words.
you knew hard in your heart ,

I've nvr blame you since the start.
but love , you're loved.

maybe we're not really ready at all.
i'm sorry , but i was so disappointed.

P.S : I WAS LOST . but you left ;

4.35am .

&the beauty.

9:27 AM

I've lost almost everything .
now even my job is losing ,
don't tell me i'm losing you .

don't tell me we can't go through this ,
it been month. :/ no .

&the beauty.

10:28 AM

Memories with love =)

It was really cold there , i wore like layers & layers ?
:] dear was very nice to me , he took good care of me.
WAHAHA xD

actually still got much more de ,
but i careless .. press dao delete ):
dear say nvm , but i know he do minds .
aww , sorry dear ! :/

TO BRYAN :

dear , we been going fine .
since the day we started til now , though we might
be quarreling over lil matter.
but love , you know i don't mean it ,
& i love you still .
hard to explain how much i love you .
but you changed my whole world , the way i think & stuff .
thanks to you , i learnt how to be much caring .
:) with your love that carries me , i'm active once again.

i've nvr had much trust in relationship , since long ago .
and now , i've found a relationship that i can trust .
Thanks for making me felt so love , and nvr beem lonely since you've appeared .
I don't mean to quarrel , but it hurts me doing that too.
i was touched , by the way you treat me. xD
thanks sayang ,

just wanted to say ..

THANKYOU .

P.S : I LOVE YOU ♥

&the beauty.

4:12 AM

Went overseas with Dear , mummy , Lei Seng , Ellyson , bro , Joyce Aunt & ppl .

took tons of pictures , but guess what ? i accidentally pressed delete ):
& Fork , all my pics are gone but left with 12 . zzz , got so pissed with that phone . but nvr , will post them up .
Have great fun though :)

Pics will be posted tml or some other days .
too tired now . been having long journey's .

loved x.x

Misses to ,
DARLING
SIS
DEAR .

everyfriend of mine .
x)

with love ,

&the beauty.

8:57 PM

It beeen a long time since i drop by ,
currently quite tired .
work , trg , out .
I won't be at home for the next 4 days .

Will be overseas (:
leaving at 11.40pm ,

misses to all ! <3

the picture on the left was taken in the year of 2006 ,
the picture on the right was taken this year =)
so much diff .

2006 - 87kg ,
2008 - 55kg .

they say it's a makeover of BEFORE & AFTER -.-

lol . anyway , not happy still .
still a fat pig . HAHAH .

&the beauty.