♥ Your dearest girl,
What's all those? so you treated me like a fool. why
not just gave me an answer?
&the beauty.
When will i learn!
everyone's so fucking disappoint in me.
every knows me, inside out especially.
and now that i've lost 2, who used to stand there for me.
that always there. nvr fails to encourage,
now that they are tired. got enough.
when then i can learn to treasure?
I don't want to be losing more.
time to wake up,
I'm sorry honey.
i disappoints you. yeah, this might be craps to you.
but i didn't know you actually cared & treasure so much.
&the beauty.
didn't thought of you remembering me, as well as knowing you'll give her the same message as well. Baby, i really don't understand. :( please, don't let me hanging around like a fool!
&the beauty.
went school, had a few test. gone! all so last minute. then follow by going home after school? The weather so hot! Alright, then actually meeting Din. End up ate with Barry at our nearby coffee shop, saw Sofea, Yue feng, Xin yi. :)
Then ordered our food, while eating, we were talking bout our school stuff. then eat finished already, went said bye to them. They told me, i never button. I was like, huh? Then i saw and i faster ran to the toilet. So malu lah, paiseh also :( like, LOL. if they never tell me, means i'll be so funny can.
Went to take a bus to mrt, and took mrt to town meet mummy & Aunt Janet. shopped around at paragon's metro. Spent around 300? Then i realised i actually spend on quite useless things lah, waste money! :/
Saw starbucks, so decided to drink something. We sat down and chit chatted. While mummy went to get drinks, Aunt Janet told me mummy cried because she was worried bout my health, my studies and everything. About coming home so late, sleeping so late. Aunt Janet say mummy doesn't want to scold me nor nag me cause she knows i don't like being nag & scolded. But she's quite unhappy with it. She said mummy was disappointed in me, though i changed to be better but she hoped i could be better.
Sorry mummy, i'll try my best to be home early. Will do things that don't disappoint you instead. I didn't know you cared much bout me, since you're always not around. & i hardly talked to you. I know you love me alot, but i love you as well. I'll learn to treasure you, sorry mummy to let you heart broken! I'll change for the better.
Tmr going paragon again get my phone, can't book through net cause got to choose numbers. So have to go down to the shop. Daddy is going with me!
Well, it's late.
Time to turn in! Goodnight ppl,
dear, left with 6days for you to be back! Like finally, so long never see you. Neither talk to you. Sorry, but i think you of you almost all the time. I hope you recovered from your flu, and wished you'll be back safely cause you know i'm still waiting! Happy belated monthsary. :) just felt like telling you. Misses plenty (:
&the beauty.
Alright! i've settled :D
wants that 16GB one, daddy says i'm his little expensive daughter.
LOL.
i'm gonna bathe now, then pack bag & sleep.
tired ~
baby coming back soon, but i don't know what i can say to settle things.
:( i wished i didn't stucked in this confusion.
&the beauty.
Well, i know many are disappointed.
especially honey. i'll try my best,
and i hope things around me don't affect me.
i need motivations as well,
i left not much time.
went polyclinic, took a bunch of medication.
then slack around, sleep & sleep.
hah.
hey, dearest it been 3weeks? i think.
i'm still waiting for you to come back. :\
i hope you'll be back safely!
&the beauty.
Ne Yo- Go on girl.
I cant get it back, but
I dont want it back, i
Realized that,
She dont know how to act
Never been a dumb dude
No im not dense
I Just had a slight lack
Of common sense
I was the good guy
She was the bad girl
Im thinking one girl
She thinking me, earl james and jimmy
Yep she had plenty
But love for me, she didnt have any
I was inviting, her into my heart
But she was out riding in some other man's car
She was my night time, thought I was her star
Guess I was wrong, but see im strong
Wont take me long for me to move on
Please dont worry bout me im fine
(Please dont worry bout me im fine)
Only gonna play the fool one time
(Only gonna play the fool one time)
Trust me when I say
That i'll be ok
Go on girl
(Go on girl)
Go on girl
(Go on girl)
Go on girl
I can't get it back,
and I dont want it back,
Realized that,
She dont know how to act
Tried to settle down and look what I get
Thought it was my time, but I guess not yet
She at the bar getting drinks from many men
Im in the house, thinking shes with her girlfriends
Trust not knowing, truly not knowing
I look back now like, man, I was open
I was inviting, her into my heart
But she was out riding in some other man's car
She was my night time, thought I was her star
Guess I was wrong, but see im strong
Wont take me long for me to move on
Please dont worry bout me im fine
(Please dont worry bout me im fine)
Only gonna play the fool one time
(Only gonna play the fool one time)
Trust me when I say
That i'll be ok
Go on girl
(Go on girl)
Go on girl
(Go on girl)
Go on girl
[Bridge]
The mistake i made is clear
(we never shoulda been together)
Thats the reason youre not here
(I know that I can do much better)
Not a single salty tear
Not a feeling in my chest
Baby im feeling no stress
Im too fly to be depressed
Go on Girl
Go on Girl
Go on Girl
Go on Girl
Please dont worry bout me im fine
(Please dont worry bout me im fine)
Only gonna play the fool one time
(Only gonna play the fool one time)
Trust me when I say
That i'll be ok
Go on girl
(Go on girl)
Go on girl
(Go on girl)
Go on girl
Been few weeks not seeing you, didn't talk much either.
miss you lah! Baby come back soon. ):
&the beauty.
Went to school as per normal.
lessons started at 9, maths.
lucky it's the first lesson, not so restless.
but til chemistry, i became so sleepy. thinking after school still got tuition waiting for me at home.
bored lah :|
Hahah. now tuition finished, use com & slack.
Helmi just reached my place, doing his RP stuff.
i wants to slp :(
Hey baby, 11more days still. I miss you,
&the beauty.
Spent the whole noon doing this silly blog.
spent so much time on it, now done already but tired.
Hahah, having dinner at causeway later with family.
=)
Baby, since you left overseas, nvr talk to you much.
still have 2more weeks, i'm waiting for you to come back, safely!
miss you & happy anniversary.(:
&the beauty.
I saw that, sister. it's just even thousand words can't explain how i feels.
i'm sorry that you gave up, i know it's atrocious if you see this.
i know i no longer stand anywhere in you. but just too hard to explain the feels.
i don't know how we landed up this way, i drift out too far.
you drift out too far as well. now nothing helps.
how then can we become back to how we used to sis?
i tried many ways in talking to you,
i tried to find topics, i tried to ask you out.
wanting to have back the times we spent. those stupid & silly fun we had.
i tried many ways. but no use. it's pointless.
i don't know what to say now. just an i'm sorry,
you're still so important.
i didn't treasure chances, i didn't treasure you enough. sorry.
&the beauty.
back at sembawang. bored. :(
&the beauty.
somehow just not as good as you're. I know you can do it, not like me. Failure.
&the beauty.
