♥ Your dearest girl,

Friday, January 30, 2009

4:18 PM

knowing yourself couldn't drink so much, yet still you did.
For what? really regretted getting together with you, i didn't know i would ruins you. If i know you would be this way, i should had not rush into it.

After being together, then i realise i shouldn't be tempted by the rush you gave me. sigh, i'm sorry then. All my fault after all.
Blame me for everything silly,
Sigh.

&the beauty.

10:57 AM

i hope you're really fine.
When then will you learn? :(

&the beauty.

7:28 AM

Knowing yourself can't drink so much,
yet go drink.
how silly can you be?
how then can i not worry?

why.

&the beauty.

11:52 PM

I lose everything, all.

&the beauty.

11:59 AM

常常责怪自己当初不应该
常常后悔没有把你留下来
为什么明明相爱
到最后还是要分开
是否我们总是徘徊在心门之外
谁知道又和你相遇在人海
命运如此安排总叫人无奈
这些年过得不好不坏
只是好像少了一个人存在
而我渐渐明白你仍然是我不变的关怀
有多少爱可以重来
有多少人愿意等待
能懂得珍惜以后会来却不知那份爱
会不会还在
有多少爱可以重来
有多少人值得等待
当爱情历经桑田沧海
是否还有勇气去爱
music
谁知道又和你相遇在人海
命运如此安排都叫人无奈
这些年过的不好不坏
只是好像少了一个人存在
而我渐渐明白你仍然是我不变的关怀
有多少爱可以重来
有多少人愿意等待
当懂得珍惜以后会来却不知那份爱
会不会还在
当爱情历经桑田沧海是否还有勇气去爱

i think this song is nice,
fits the whole thing.

&the beauty.

8:40 PM

The 3rd day here,
facing the 4 damn walls again.
still have a week to go.

:( i don't like here,
the whole level is me, myself.
while the rest at the floor below.
each night thinking so much again,
sigh.

why can't i be happy?
why did you change my life after getting used to it.
why!
how i wish i was like how i used to.
wearing a smile on the face,
it's no longer like how i'm now.
i can't smile radiantly.
i can't.
i don't blame you also,
maybe it was my fault for falling.
i fallen too deep.

but anyway, thanks for letting me learn how to be independent.
ha.

&the beauty.

10:40 PM

(: He gave me one me to you bear also!
hahah. alright, that's to keep my days in sembawang better.
i'm going out soon, meeting some idiots. LOL.

then go over to grandmother's place for reunion dinner.
meeting shawn for awhile i think?
because he says his coming to find me.
Lim fei say he's coming too. haahh.

bored leh. ><
kill me.

Yilingsis left,
back on the 30th
miss her!

Idiot baby, imy.

BYE PEOPLE.

&the beauty.

3:26 PM

bored. chinese new year is the worst part i ever have each year. everyone must be super happy having red packets. ;
But i've to force myself going back being happy.
Moving back to sembawang tonight til next week or next next week i think?

So, don't bother asking me out. Because not convenient alr, sembawang & amk many many different loh.
Somemore the road light switched off at 11? means i've to be home before that. or else can't walk that path unless i'm really brave. lol!
Aiya, but still like shit.
have many many bearit to accompany me while i over there. HAHAH. :)

It's like, 7.30am now. I'm awake. so dislike going back, shit these.
Morning anyway!

&the beauty.

3:02 PM

sick again, what is this? tsk.

&the beauty.

11:41 PM

thanks to some fcuker,
i'm landed this way.

&the beauty.

9:34 PM

fainted in the morning..
yesterday de yesterday.
then sent to hospital.
so discharged around 5pm+ ?

i don't know.
i'm weak. :\

i need a break.

&the beauty.

3:06 PM

so, what's wrong?

let me get over it,
let me be happy.

that's all i ever asked for.

&the beauty.

8:11 AM

Why did i fall for you?
Making me worse, in anything. in anyways.
Ha, someone just help me?

&the beauty.

10:06 AM

Ahhh. ):

I miss you.
i love you.

reallyreally do.

i don't care whether how you think i'm,
you may take it that i've forgotten everything.
i don't love you anymore.
up to you,

but what i said, was just trying to make you feel better.
cause you'll know how bad i'm, so you would stop thinking of me.
you wouldn't be hurt, you would be happy.
& if you hate me, i'll be even happy.

&the beauty.

11:03 PM

Fucked up, everything was shit.
school was _ .

not a mood for anything,

silly, cheer up.

&the beauty.