♥ Your dearest girl,
Went sch like normal ,
now no longer gonna have ppl wake me up.
nobody will msg me early in the morning ,
just to wake me up.
:\ i know i got to be independent though.
i've rely on you too much c ,
i'm sorry still.
well , HAPPYBIRTHDAY JEANETTE LIM ! sis :D
going SIM find pinky ,
then NP for TMO =)
then town to collect top ,
then celebrate nette's birthday.
gtg !
pinky's waiting for me.
heh ^^
bye ,
imy cookaye.
&the beauty.
suddenly jiahao poped up in msn ,
& ask me if dear in maju camp -.-
so i was like , ya. LOL ,
so he been seeing me there lah.
so long liao , then tell me.
zzz , surprised he inside also .
it's 2am , time to slp.
days still got to pass ,
miss you cookaye.
&the beauty.
left sch at 10.30am , then went to kk for therapy.
:\ like normal , sucks.
then reached home ard 12.30pm , i just bathe.
gonna go rest soon , meeting Eunice later to study. =)
i realised how independent i got to be ,
because i'm alone now. somehow feelings tells me ,
your heart's still with me.
& still the same .
i miss you cookaye ,
&the beauty.
Saw you walk into the room
Thought I’d try to talk to you
Babe am I ever glad you wanted me to
It’s been two years to the day
Half the time I’ve been away
I know I’m not there enough but that’s gonna change
Cause I’m coming back
To show you that I’m keep the promise I made
When I’m with you I'll make every second count
Cause I miss you
Whenever you're not around
When I kiss you
I still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count when I'm with you
Yeah we've had our ups and down
But we've always worked them out
Babe am I ever glad we've got this far now
Still I'm lying here tonight
Wishing I was by your side
Cause when I'm not there enough
Nothing feels right
So I'm coming back to show you that
I'll love you the rest of my life
When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
Cause I miss you
When ever you're not around
When I kiss you I still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count
When I'm with you
Whatever it takes I'm not gonna break the promise I made
When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
Cause I miss you
When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
Cause I miss you
Whenever you're not around
When I kiss you
I still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count
(Make every second count)
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
Yeah
& imy.
&the beauty.
I once told you ,
i would be strong.
yes , i can go without you ,
but i'm wrong dearest.
lol , everything felt with you.
all was you ! i wanted to act really strong ,
but didn't know it could hurt so much deep down.
i was so rush in anger , everything seems to end.
Cookaye ,
what more can i ask ?
&the beauty.
Cookaye , maybe time to cool down ?
i don't know what's wrong ,
but i need your answer.
i'm not rushing you , & i don't want to regret making that choice.
sorry dear , i shoulden't be that rush yesterday night.
but things don't come out the way you want , neither do i ?
i hope you would be back & contact me soon.
because i'll be waiting for that answer.
no matter what it may come out to be ,
i'll still appreciate much.
i miss you just as much ,
because it been long since i last saw you.
takecare and hope you're fine out there !
love you many ,
:\
&the beauty.
&the beauty.
which fucker hacked my msn ! fuck.
&the beauty.
i don't know what to do , i'm confused.
&the beauty.
I got used ,
& i'm determined not to please the way you like.
it's just my thinking , for what you should do.
lol , i'm like dumb enough , to really believe.
i kept waiting , waiting.
i'm not , i'm not.
GWENN ! just fucking wakeup.
not a time to be like this.
wtf.
&the beauty.
I don't want to run away ,
baby all i want is you tonight.
To hold you tight ,
Cookaye , i do miss you.
&the beauty.
i'm getting use to not having you by my side. dear , don't make me get into such thoughts. be back soon , because i do miss you like i always do. yeah , waiting for you to be back.
Miss you.
&the beauty.
Treat me the way you like ,
treat me the way you want.
i'm just like something ,
that have to please you no matter what mood you're having.
i'm really tired ,
&the beauty.
Was practically unwell.
ill , moodless :\
&the beauty.
Didn't go to school today ,
quite ill :\
been slping at 4 , for the past few days.
keep playing pool & have fun.
neglected my health & studies i guess.
sigh , time to get back on track.
baby left ,
nvr meet him today. so i guess ,
got to wait for another 4days to see him again.
): i'm missing you alrdy.
do takecare , while i'm not ard.
love you so !
hugs *
&the beauty.
&the beauty.
Dear , you're wonderful :D
you made learnt plenty of things ,
thanks for that love.
(: love yah.
&the beauty.
today school was fine ,
=) studystudy !
been msg-ing with dearest ;D
& i miss my cookaye.
Heh.
going training now , bye ppl.
baby's booking out !
&the beauty.
Well , dear practically disappoint me again.
but i know , he's tired :\
i'll try to be understanding , i guess.
today went to pool with ,
Tavis first. then Marc join ,
then Eunice & Nette.
then til 10 ? i go take bus home.
F. i left my wallet on the bus ,
so ran to catch up with that bus ,
& i managed to :D
everythings back !
thank God =)
it's 1am ,
time to slp.
nights dearest ;
&the beauty.
Have been going to k pool ,
to pool with Eunice; Jeannette; Marc & TMO.
hahah , always pool ard 7pm to 1am. then slack til 5 ,
tired life.
but quite fun with them ^^
& also , went sentosa with
Eunice,Yilin,Marc,Qiyu & Nette.
so , it was fun :D
this is how i spent my saturday sunday !
as for today ?
hmm. think gonna go out awhile to slack ,
then home.
:)
baby's booking out tml.
imy though ,
&the beauty.
Nothing much more to say ,
Nothing much more to feel.
all has left ,
feelings are down.
Thinking of when will be the next time ,
i'm able to see you.
All the moments was you ,
all i think was you.
but you left me ,
& make me miss you.
): i miss you dear.
3rd day , another 2 days.
i endure !
&the beauty.
Baby's gone :\
but he say he's appearance gone ,
but his love remains.
sweet uh ?
honeywords :X
opps.
so today , didn't go sch again.
sick til ~
eye swollen ,
thoart swollen,
then no voice ):
+ pimples keep coming out.
I'M GONNA SCREAM! AHHHHH.
today definately a bad day.
Cookaye says he miss me.
Hahah !
&the beauty.
Tears had dried up ,
sorrows has came out.
Sitting by the window ,
looking at the sparrow ;
thinking of the memories that we've ,
the time we spent.
all was wonderful,
hope that things will go better.
which i'll treasure :)
my dumb baby , still slping tightly.
hugging a lil bear slping like a kid :D
get up soon dear ,
darl ! tml's your birthday eh.
misses though ^^
&the beauty.
&the beauty.
EH dear ! happy 1 month :)
lovelove ^^
&the beauty.
School ? lol. sucks ,
reached sch on time. nearly late lah ,
got to rush here & there :\
i so hope i could settle down at a place ,
there's so much thing happening.
and baby's so far from me.
sigh ,
&the beauty.
it's 7am in the morning. &
I'm still deciding whether to go school or not. sigh , wake up alrdy. then here not feeling well , there weak here weak. f. lah :/ but most probably going school.
Baby is out tonight. Imy anyway ,
&the beauty.
Okay , so for the past 4days. i've been talking to dear through calls.
last msg was like last week ):
sigh , i felt so drifted.
but it draws me closer to missing him.
all we can ,
was to call in the morning for few mins.
at night before he slps , another 15mins ?
well , i'm contented at least he tried to call.
but sad because we can't change the matter.
anyway ,
we're going a month.
just got to thank him ,
& to wait =)
i know ,
i'm gonna pass through.
dear* & you know i love you.
darl ! your birthday coming :D
&the beauty.
Never go sch , training also.
have my appointment at 1.30pm.
life sucks & i felt very weak.
><
&the beauty.
can't you see how much i need you right now ? :/
&the beauty.
I'm going crazy lah.
dear , why !
&the beauty.
Dear , i don't mean to quarrel with you uh. i know it's my fault , but not all solely me. though , i apologise. ): you said you would call , sigh :\
i kept waiting & waiting. since 9am til now. it's 3pm alrdy ! for goodness sake , how ?
i gave too much ,
what else can i do execpt waiting ?
=(
&the beauty.
Well , dear's gone. =(
This time even longer , i don't know why. i started missing him since he went in.
Hmm , then went to work after that. work sucks , because none i was close with. but happy to see so many same school. ^^ that's still better.
Darl , i know it's still the same whether i'm ard or not. but , i can't ,
&the beauty.
well , have been quite busy this week. Went training , but knowing there will be more to be out. hmm , so what can i do ?
felt kind of bad to leave the team for quite a long period;
Apologized. sorry ! Sigh :\
then met up with dear , when he's out. hahah , at least we still got the chance to talk. he's leaving soon again tml. zzz , doesn't like the feel of being left there again. got to wait for another four days , but five days for exact. to see him again. hope he got the initiative , because i found myself committed too much; well , i shoulden't be so relying on him. because someday he's leaving to places far away & long. i've got to switch to his routine which keeps changing. i know i can't complaint because it isn't his fault for those duties , but .. somehow he should have some initiative bah. i don't ask for much also. at times i wonder still , am i important ? I doesn't want to get myself falling down hard which hurts much more than anything. if he happens to see this , i'm sorry if i'm too straight. but , that's how i feel. because ily ): which leads me to missing you all the time. bad , i know i aren't a good gf. i hope he understands; but i'm trying to be one.
Darling , i don't know if i could still address you like that. & i guess after all these , i still need you bah. i don't know how to make you feels that i'm not just using you .. i'm not gonna throw you a side like you said. i don't know how to proof to you either. but it seems fine for you , just hope all the best for you. living happily & staying good then jiu alright le bah. like what i said , i once said i would love you like my sister forever. which you're the second whom i said to. I know alot of friendships doesn't meant forever , but i'm so certain that; yours are. i've nvr said to anyone except yiling & you. up to you to believe or not. i'm still waiting. counting on still !
Meeting dear tml for lunch before he books in & i work. (: tml will be a better day i hope. misses c , darl too. and dearest sis =D
&the beauty.
♥ , it's time to not rely you much.
):
&the beauty.
Who understands ?
i'm feeling really down.
dear , you've been disappearing.
your absence is long that it made me misses you.
what more can i say ?
just want to hold you a lil while longer;
& i loveyou.
still got 6weeks to go ,
if everyday gonna be like that.
how am i gonna perservere ? ):
&the beauty.
eh cookaye , i miss you lah.
): 1st day without talking to you.
sucks can. zz !
&the beauty.
Lol , seriously i felt weird talking to you like this.
someone we're getting a distance.
i don't know what more are we ? really no more backs ?
sigh , think & think.
after 1year + , it's so diff.
we used to joke ard , laughters always exsits.
nah , no longer for now i guess.
i don't know what to talk to you ,
but i can't possibily let you go just like that.
like somehow ,
sister;
thanks for your memories darl.
it's nice & sweet i guess.
we spent 1year + out going everywhere.
maybe it's really diff , to give up a friendship so easily.
i don't know why we landed into this state ,
yes , i do apologise when times we quarreled.
but it's not solely my fault.
it really takes two hands to clap ,
i don't mind bearing & giving in.
but how long can i do it ?
&the beauty.
Sigh :\ why ?
things must really happen til like that ?
aren't we spent so much before ,
but after you went. it became nth !
this seems to be fine for you,
then alright.
i'm sad , but so ? i don't want to show out luh.
no point telling you so much ,
but we end up wtithout solutions.
okay , tell me what you want me to do !
to sastify what you expect me of;
it seems so hard to hang on.
you would talk to me like this ,
meant you've really end it.
well , i'm tired !
i know you're gonna say so do you.
alright , up to you.
if you happen to be so random reading my blog ,
then good bah.
if you don't , then forget it.
you don't have to know how i feels anyway.
&the beauty.
This is testing my endurance;
i'm trying to hang on there !
because i know if we past through these ,
we'll have better memories infront of us
waiting.
i'm not gonna give up ,
& i waits for you to be out again.
i know it's hard ,
but let this be a test.
:) i'll go pass ,
&the beauty.
I hope it's gonna be true & long =)
&the beauty.
Bored weekends.
:\ nah , it's just now right.
&the beauty.
Home ! now waiting for baby to call.
zzz , bored. no more movie timing le lah.
wasted another saturday just like that.
): if you could spare a thought.
maybe i should try to be more understanding ?
i don't know.
fucktard.
&the beauty.
Hahah , went to watch movie with dear.
wanted is nice ! it's violence + actions.
omg , scary at times. LOL !
then baby went to mac ,
he's so hungry.
:D then roof top , sweet.
soon , HOMESWEETHOME ~
tml going town with dear ,
i don't know what he's gonna plan.
i demand him to plan =)
HAHAH.
wellwell , hope to spend wonderful weekends.
because he'll be very busy during July ,
then leaving to Taiwan ard end of September for weeks.
Gosh , i don't want think so much.
just hope to spend whatever time i've with him bah.
sigh :\
darling !
happyweekends to you.
enjoy & studyhard uh.
nvr gonna forget you.
:D my AXW , heh.
AXW = ANG XIN WEI.
^^
alright , time to slp.
or else later can't wake up for tuition.
zzz. so early can.
8+ , bored.
all the best for those Nomad performers !
(:
TC ,
especially sis.
&the beauty.
Baby's out today !
finally. LOL ,
5 days alrdy uh. )x
Darling ! all the best for your common test uh.
takecare tons & hope you're doing fine.
:D
today went to slack with colin , edwin & yg.
bored , sch ended at 10.10 can ,
like nth to do. so slack !
no sports mah , zzz.
bored life = NO life !
hmm. still thinking ,
want go N.O.M.A.D or what.
BORED ~
miss that dumb C lah.
-.- omg.
&the beauty.
Went sch at 7.45am , nearly late uh.
baby text me at 6.13am, i woke up because
of that vibration. so early uh , forgot
tell him that my sch starts at 8 from this week
onwards.
Aww :\ Friday , saturday & sunday comes quickly pls.
how i wish everyday would be this 3 days , that's enough.
dear , i miss you much uh ~
darling ,
hope you're doing great.
&the beauty.
There was nothing to say
the day she left
just filled a suitcase full of regrets
I held a taxi in the rain
looking for someplace to ease the pain
Then like an answered prayer
I turned around and found u there
you really know where to start
fixing a broken heart
you really know what to do
your emotional tools can cure any fool
whose dreams have fallen apart
fixing a broken heart
Now I don't understand what I'm going through
there must be a plan that lead me to you
because the hurt just disappeares
in every moment that you are near
Just like an answered prayer
you made the loneliness easy to bear
You really know where to start
fixing my broken heart
you really know what to do
your emotional tools can cure any fool
whose dreams have fallen apart
fixing a broken heart
Surely the wind will stop falling baby
and I'll forget the past
cuz here we are at last
you really know where to start
fixing a broken heart
you really know what to do
your emotional tools can cure any fool
whose dreams have fallen apart
Fixing a broken heart... fixing a broken heart
* it's a nice song ,
&the beauty.
&the beauty.
this post is especially for dear.
I know it isn't easy to be your gf ,
i've to fit to your timing & stuffs.
yup , sometimes our things clashed tgt.
right , but.
just got to tell you smth ,
maybe i would just try harder ,
& everything will be fine.
=) i'm holding on to it ,
dear don't let go.
we're going far tgt !
misses *
&the beauty.
F. that cleaner who sweep my pack away.
expensive lah -.-
wtf.
it's new pls , left it on the floor doesn't mean don't want uh.
call the cleaner wait then he faster go sweep other places then go liao.
omg.fcuk it ,
&the beauty.
i'm redrawing from sports , i need a break :\
maybe a week at least ,
i requested to mr tan.
he accepted , well. time for me to rest before i get on track again !
went central with edwin & colin ..
met christina after that to slack tgt.
hmm , knowing her probs maybe linked to mine.
which causes me to think abt c -.-
omg.
oh yah ,
me & darling quite okay now.
^^ heheh.
Baby's gonna guard duty tml.
bored D:
imy cookaye ,
<3
&the beauty.
It's 2nd day without you ,
but do you feel anything ?
hah , only dumb like me would be awaiting for you.
oh come on , want to end just got to say !
so that i woulden't have high hopes darl ,
i'm tired !
Cookaye's gone til friday T_T
another week burnt.
sucks , i miss you C !
heh.
&the beauty.
