♥ Your dearest girl,
31JULY2007 ;
HAHAS , why must july ahave 30days ? which is like , LOL . long can -.- hahas . hao lah , let's start with today ! Well , nth much today . but , can't get away from the case; because of folding paper aeroplane shooting at tcher's :D . funny right ? =x walao eh , shoot also can shoot til tcher , i think i very pro sia =] .
photos today !
oh ya , went Ubin today.. took so muchhhhhh photos luh . in class , ubin & at night !
anyway , Mrs Tan Ann ne & Mr Tan Wait Kit leaving for Brisbane . oh fcuk , sad =/
she used to be the tcher i hate most , now ? i freaking love her x[
i know i'm wrong tcher , forgive me for last time's problem i gave ):
come back quick ! LOVES ~ .
trying to treasure the time with you today !
to the teachers ,
though you both are leaving ,
but yet the memories are kept inside :D
so , take good care while overseas !
will be waiting for your return both .
TAKECARE (:
Bon Voyage .
loves ;
PHOTOS TIME ^^
THAT'S THE WATER OVER THERE =]
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took with Adlin,Erin ! (:
ME AND MRS TAN .
ME,ERIN&MRSTAN .
THE MEMORIES LEFT .
HAIS =/
i'm like , so tired to intro the pic !
see for yourself kay ? :D
thankyou =)
hahas .
tired ~
still got more photos behind lah =x
yeah , another batch =]
coming next ,
haha ! in class de .
then coming next ;
took in class with Erin =p
LOL .
still got !
stil have somemore ,
but i lazy post le lah (=
so , end of the day .
hope everyone's happy .
& i think Gwenn is fcuking nerd .
she studies , she is so guai =x
BHB-ING =p
`GWENNDOLYN -
My Hidden Love ' <3 ,
&the beauty.
hais !
sherylyn mei ,
sorry for saying those things
through sms jus now .
but , i'm fcuking moodless now .
sorry ! but i still ..
hais . ilu ):
all i could say .
`GWENNDOLYN -
why is it so hard ? ..
&the beauty.
30JULY2007 ;
let's see today . allright , went sch as normal . wokeup late today ! cause yesterday too late slp alrdy , hahas . slept at 1am plus yesterday ~ do those f. things that is irealevant . LOL , okay .. then reached sch , first&second period was chinese . went com lab , for chinese . then went online . OMG , MY LAPTOP BURN-ED . LOL , then 3rd period for english , and comblab again . like , been in the lab for long ~ so super cold , freezing lah =/ . then , after break was IAP . dance&music . composed my music .. then dance-d .
After sch .. dance ? eilen cut her hair ! fcuking nice though . HAHA , my hair was too short to even cut lah . sian ! ): then nevermind . wasn't in class for the whole day . due to the lesson's . which is good :D . then at night tuition , end of the day =] .
300707 ;
friends are still the best .
sister's , never ending love ;
friends are the best <3 .
thanks buddy (:
`GWENNDOLYN -
hard to explain the feelings ;
ilu =)
&the beauty.
30july2007 ;
Let's start with my entry for the day ^^ went out in the morning , went compasspoint to do photo . Hahas , then took the bus to Monfort :D .
and here comes my trg . hahas , didn't really train much today .. cause it's games day today ! Lol , played alot today . wahahas xD .
me&may vs Yeeling&xueting .
me&Joanne vs candice&elyson .
me&may vs candice&karen .
me&candice vs may&karen .
me&candice vs elyson&Joanne .
me&may vs clara&wanling .
guess it's all ? =p
then stroke with candice after trg .
and may too ..
apologise to may ;
sorry for not on form today .
mood wasn't right too .
& also sick still .
can't play well .
apologise to Joanne ;
sorry for my lousy-ness !
Nice pairing with you anyway ^^
after trg ,
went Changi Village eat with mummy ..
nicenice ! <3 .
nice chocolates , first from you ..
hahas =]
then went home ..
here's some photos for yesterday&today (:
Me&Yiling , on saturday =]
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Emo uh ? =/
hahas ,
allright , that's all for today .
tml will be packedd ..
School ;
Lessons ;
Classes ;
Tuition ;
HomesweetHome :D
packed huh ?
yeah , kind of XD .
GTG ~ IT'S LATE.
TIME TO SLP PEEPS ! =)
BYE ALL ''
`GWENNDOLYN -
She's trying to forget the past ;
&the beauty.
29JULY2007 ;
It's 9.37am in the morning , i'm just awake ~ hahas, just chnaged& everything . gonna go out to Badminton alrdy :D today it's a Sunday , which is trg (: LOL . i'm excited bout that lah . ;p
angry abt another thing ;
my fcuking phone can't receive msg .
like wtf ? sometimes can ,
sometimes can't .
hais , sorry if you all got msg me or wat .
`GWENNDOLYN -
out til nights <3 .
bye peeps ~
&the beauty.
28JULY2007 ;
shootshootshoots =x super tired lah . LOL , kay . then went to meet Yiling =] have muchmuch fun though it's so short ^^ then , went dhoubyghaut meet mummy ! hahas , my mummy is cute lah (: i love her okay ! <3 . thankyou mummy . ain't i a good daughter of your's ? :D opps , BHB ~
PACKEDDDDDDD EVERYDAY .
Oh God , help !
hahas .
tml , ELITE <333333 .
will have alotalot of fun i guess .
LOL .
awaiting for tml , nice trg again .
wahahas xD .
`GWENNDOLYN -
she loves you =]
&the beauty.
28JULY2007 -
to Kenneth ;
i didn't mean it's your fault .
i didn't mean you're playing or wat ,
it's just . simply , i loveyou .
but wat i got back was nth .
and it's stress .
i was alone all the while ,
i was lonely all the while ,
always quietly walking alone .
where're you when i need you ?
you ain't with me ..
how am i supposed to ensure you're still the one ?
when you even swear&promise you would be there .
but you didn't .
so , how can i ever understand . you still love me ?
but i didn't mean your fault ,
it's just MINE , the problem lies on me .
allright , i know .
i can't be a good girlfriend ,
i coulden't be one . yeah , i apologised for that .
i'm sorry .
sincerly , truthfully ..
Sorry . that's no way why i should reject you ,
but i just coulden't feel the ensure that you love me !
i dunwan to doubt , yet the situation still fault me to .
and i've to .
i felt weird without you ,
i dunno why .
but seperation is still the best way ..
for the both of us .
and i can swear , i do loveyou ALOT .
but why feelings keep fading away when it's not suppose to ?
cause , the feelings towards me .. had changed ,
everything wasn't right .
seems so different for last time ..
i chose to breakup .. not because i dun loveyou anymore ,
nor i wanted to reject you .
it's just , things came out this way ..
Hate me nor Love me , you choose .
i can't change the way you think ,
sorry was the only word .
I'M SORRY STILL -
`GWENNDOLYN -
&the beauty.
27JULY2007 ;
Thankyou for your love =] it's nice yeah . LOL , hahas . curently at library stdying eh , ain't i a go0dgal :D opps , BHB =x studysudystudy , it's all i do . hais , sian ! going home soon alrdy ! HAPPY OUTSIDE ^^
`GWENNDOLYN -
CIGG&BEERS <3 .
&the beauty.
27JULY2007 ;
Wahahas xD . allright , let's start with today . Went to sch like normal , make a fuss this morning with my maid ):
the conversation btw me&my maid .
ME : oh hack , can i not go school today ?
MAID : Why ? mum say's you've to .
ME : I DON'T WANT TO . (shouted)
MAID : You better go sch before i tell your mother uh . (normal tone)
ME : Get out of the room . (irritated voice)
MAID : AH MEI AH ! WAKEUP ! (worried voice)
ME : I SAID GET OUT LAH . ENOUGH LAH ! (VERYFUCKEDUP VOICE)
MAID : HAIS .. (nagging tone)
after a while , i think&think .. better go sch ,
cause of so many test today ! Thank God , he made me go to sch .
HAHA . i didn't make the wrong choice .
went to sch , maths test was allright .
&& SURPRISINGLY , IT'S PRACTICAL FOR FNN .
LOL ! good right :D
made Beehoon while the other group done Pizza .
hahas , Beehoon was nice >.< i meant yiling's group one .
theirs are nice , mine was abit darker =/
HEHEH .
then buddy text me , and said ...
i was worried lah =x
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Then , i called darling just now .
She didn't answer the phone , probaly slping i guess ?
hahas , pig her =p
After school , saw all my birds !
was damn happy lah , like so long never see them le .
i missed them much okay ! i swear , i love every c'gals <3 .
trainhard gals ! =]
Apologise to Mr Lim !
canceled the shooting today ,
sorry ; to delay your shooting =/
but i've something on in the afternoon .
sorry for last min change ! will pay back to you on saturday !
didn't mean to , cancel fliming ):
SORRY !
Today is a Friday , yet i coulden't train .
sad , can't touch badminton for 1week due to health .
sad lah =x i really wanna train can ! >.<
gonna go out to study later .
hope buddy is fine eh (:
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DON'T SAY I DON'T EVEN CARE ,
IF I DON'T EVEN CARE ,
I WOULDEN'T EVEN BOTHER TO TEXT YOU !
OR TO REPLY YOUR TEXT , GET THAT FACT .
and yes , i do care .
`GWENNDOLYN -
Gwenn is gonna workhard for thrutrain =)
&the beauty.
27JULY2007 ;
thankyou for your jacket :D . i'm still mugging ! hais , stress lah . so many things happen at one go . like fcuk can ~ omgosh . i still need .. your support&help .. dun fall . be strong ! i can ^^
`GWENNDOLYN -
Gwenn is finding herself back !
&the beauty.
26JULY2007 ;
happysixmonthstoDARLING (: today went sch , everything don't seems to go right . though everyone treat me so good , but why can't i change the way of thinking ! he dun love me anymore ! why the fcuk should i love him still , and much like before ? i'm just trying to act fine , sorry friends . i'm unable to get back to my oldself , it's hard for me to even forget him . tears just coulden't stop rolling when i said this ! wthack . i told myself , i must be strong , and never drop a tears for you anymore , but i still did . even writing this , i'm still sobbing . but why ! everything is just fcuking unright.
i know i can't be a good girlfriend ,
so , i'm trying to be a good buddy to all .
trying to be a good friend of everyone =]
eversince i failed to be a good girlfriend ,
i told myself , it's hard for me to love someone again =x
it hurts me thinking bout the past , though it maybe
short , but all the memories spent was kept hard .
YOU'RE MY HIDDEN LOVE ;
that no ones know .
you knew , i still loveyou =/
woaini <3 .
took with yiling ,
sistership never ends =]
Baby , be my never ending love then ;
love as you're . it hurts me ):
Gwenn is just fcuking useless =/
afterall , i'm still alone .
cigg&beers .
was that my cravings ?
`GWENNDOLYN -
oh Father , lord help !
&the beauty.
25JULY2007 ;
Ain't i supposed to be happy ? now that one burden have gone off . but no , it's not the truth . but yet , i'm still missing you . like , omgosh . i need you >.< WHYWHYWHY ! i dun get it . hais =x sometimes , it's hard to explain my love . so complicated . I JUST STILL FCUKING LOVEYOU . but why ! i dun get it . i told myself not to shed tears for you , but i still did . it seems nth to you , but it means huge to me . well , hard to explain .
anyway , thankyou for those taggers (:
thanks to all frens&family .
even buddy's :D
sisters and all . thankyou for being there with me =)
real thank lots ^^
to my buddy '
thankyou for being with me no matter wat <3 .
XIEXIE .
Gwenn is still down =/
let me get back to my oldself .
cigg&beers ):
oh fuck .
&the beauty.
25JULY2007 ;
At this time , all are studying .. but , i'm left alone . i'm at home , i'm too weak to even step out of the house . But why ? my first reaction was still you =x i'm fcuking unwell , but still in my mind was .. iloveyou >.< and , our story ended at 12.43pm . our relationship , ended like this -
well , perhaps it's good ? for both of us bah .
help .
Gwenn is down once again =/
To Kenneth ;
I'm sorry , i coulden't be as good .
and , i apologise so .
I break , not because i dun loveyou .
But , it's just too stress for both of us
to hold it on .
Maybe this is good for both of us ,
it's not your fault anyway .
From today onwards , we shall be friends .
Takecare ,
i loveyou still <3<3<3<3 .
`GWENNDOLYN -
everything ended ~
&the beauty.
25JULY2007 ;
it's just , early in the morning ... i coulden't help it .. i'm very xinku , but where're you ? hais , seriously .. i'm really alone . My voice changed , i'm having a great fever , i'm coughing my lungs out ; and i'm having blocked nose . it's making me miserable , it's painful .. my eyes are sore , but so ? you dun give a fcuk . whether i'm still alive , it doesn't matter anymore . i'm still shedding tears , rmb the promise you made ; rmb things we've done .. rmb those happy moments , it makes my heart felt painful . and it hurts much Baby , your love make me feel blessed , make me feel happy . but everything ended , sorry if i coulden't be a good galfren , cause i know i ain't good enough for you . i apologised .. but , i still loveyou .. x[ it was kept hidden =x
oh gosh , i'm suffering .
`GWENNDOLYN -
she's helpless .
&the beauty.
24JULY2007 ;
why am i still shedding tears , when i'm not supposed to ? and break down , like i've never been . Thanks to those , who've been with me (: all those whiles , and letting me felt good =]
Thanks to all my classmates ,
Thanks to all my juniors ,
Thanks to all my teamates ,
Thanks to my buddy ,
Thanks to Darling ,
all my gans too :D
Thankyou for being with me ,
no matter wat i'm facing .
Loves <3 .
&the beauty.
24JULY2007 ;
HAPPYBIRTHDAY JULIANA :) okay , let's start with today . it's 11.16am , i just came back from sch . i'm feeling so unwell , then blackout in sch . so , mummy came to pick me up . hospital i go ! morning , went to school alone ): then , don't know ; tears just keep rolling no matter wat i go . Baby , you've carved a big cut in the heart . and it hurt much =/ well , so . not feeling well today . After going hospital , one tube poked through my hand again . it hurt much . and i'm facing it alone again . HAIS , i fcuking hate the feeling . alot of photos taken , some in hospital . alot at home ! camwhore (: since nth to do , hais once again . i jus hope to see you , and .. i'm wanting to . Boy , i miss you real much .
was taken when i reached home ,
still look fine . but i was actually very
xinku ):
look fcuking shag !
twist :D
peace buddy ! (:
sadistic comes ! =/
was taken when i'm waiting for the doctor ,
fcuking unwell ):
where're you when i need you ?
lonely*
this is how it looks like , with the fcuking needle being poked .
and it hurts okay ,
seriously .
i'm just alone .
lonely ,
it was me ; myself that walks the whole path .
i still missyou, think of you .
and i'm still shedding tears for you ,
but why ? =/ cause i loveyou still .
much#
Gwenn is ill ,
&the beauty.
it been midnight , yet i'm still cying over you ..
i loveyou so deep . but to you , it's nth . well , i guess so .
nth could change .
i've been hurt deeply .
everybody , leaves me alone .
): dying .
&the beauty.
23JULY2007 ;
Seriously , dunno how explain the feel . but yet , it's hard to explain . Talk to him today , tell him how i really feel&been . i've been very stress and tired these months . eversince being with you , i experiences lonelyness ): which is , hais =/ but then , really .. i do loveyou . but it's just hard to explain , somethings is rather to remain shut than said . you're my hidden love . i'm still deciding ~ . i shed real lots of tears for you , tears keep rolling down my cheeks without noticing . i loveyou too much . hais .
It takes 2 hands to clap , but so wat if i contribute my love . it's only one single hand , which is useless . and , with one sided love . it will come out to be nth . maybe , without you .. i would be more happy ? or you'll be better ? i dunno . but , i dunwan to be the one keep hanging alone there ; without you beside me . i hate this feeling , i hate it . well , it's just useless . it's tiring&stress . let me off bah , let me cool down bah =( i'm ill .
I loveyou still <3<3<3<3 .
leave me , if you meant to hurt me .
i've left with nth ,
yet you alone .
you know who i meant .
`GWENNDOLYN -
she's so confused )=
&the beauty.
22JULY2007 ;
Well , wat i did yesterday ? hahas , swimming=x then went to meet darling for movie :D then at night went with mummy ! <3 . Thankyou , for accompanying me ^^ lols . then went home . Have alot of things yesterday . drank this and that , wah piang . then my lungs now = dying ~ hais . painpain =/
I'm ill lah . sorethoart , keep coughing like mad . fever ): omgosh . but there's no one caring for me . it always seem i'm alone . why ? you just not there for me . i dunno why , this is how i feel . Why didn't you care abt me . when i need you .. but it's just , a dumb me thinking dumb things .. hais =( you said you would be there for me .. but the truth ? no .. it's reality . HELP . i'm suffering .
Going church later , may everything goes off ! (: then i'm free again .
God , restores my soul ; let me be fine . i pray :D Thankyou =)
`GWENNDOLYN -
need your love more =)
&the beauty.
20JULY2007 ;
Sorry ! so long never blog alrdy , been busy these few days . trg , fren outing& family gathering . wow , it's . tiring ! let's start with yesterday (:
School was , okay lah .. Morning met Dear , hahas swt him =] then , during school hours ... xD !
thos photos , taken yesterday :D
hahas , happy camwwhore-ing !
i'm mad ~
After those crazyness , it's trg time ! physical , LOL . die liao =/
hahas . oh ya , met Dear after school for awhile . he sent me to the bus stop =x that was so long ago , when we last tgt .. i miss him >.< it's shy saying this buy still .. ilu <3 ! . HAHA , then trg trg trg . then went vivo with mummy ! <3 . then went home at abt 11pm . Saw Roy&Joanne there , like damn qiao (: then took the same train til amk . home sweet home ~ reached home , i bathe liao . jiu audi , til i so tired. went to slp . i audi for the sake to let me forget all my worries , hais . i'm like , suffering .. omgosh . =( waiting for saturday's trg to trash everything out ! then .. go on to slp xD .
Dear , i missedyou .
it was long , when i last talked to you .
and to even hold hands =/
i missed those memories .
i loveyou ,
and it's still so strong&firm .
it's so comfirm , i loveyou ..
<3<3<3<3 .
Darling ,
thanks for everything (:
happy celebrating ! :D
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21JULY2007 ;
Today morning , actually wanna go trg . But grandpa was ill , sent to hospital . neeeda go , then can't go trg . sad eh , but then .. hais , wanna trash everything out during trg de =/ but then can't , instead something added to it .
wah piang , i gonna burst some days ! ~ i'm going mad .
Then reached home at 12pm . i'm super tired . swimming ltr =x then go out with darling . wahahas xD , waited soso long ! lol , missed the times .. tml , church then out with buddy :D . all planned , but then full of things . packed !
Dear Heavenly Father ;
I hope you could give me inner peace ,
to even keep me quiet .
bring me to the quet waters , restores my soul .
let me get back to normal ,
i'm troubled with stuffs ..
Father , i know you would blessed me for that .
In the name of Jesus I pray ,
Amen -
Love Jesus ♥
`GWENNDOLYN -
swimmingswimming ; gonna burst ! =/
&the beauty.
19JULY2007 ;
1st - reborn my hair .
2nd - happybirthday to darling ^^
3rd - happy4thmonth to yiling .
4th - Thanks to Dear's present :D
5th - going out later ;
6th - quarrels =/
Starting , i reborned my hair yesterday . LOL , fugging ugly =/ nevermind lah . hais , over liao . school suck today , happy to meet Dear in the morning (:
then after that ... no more contact .. =(
HAPPYBIRTHDAY DARLING ^^ 17TH ALRDY . hahas , ilu =) and to yiling , happy4thmonth , lastlong yeah :D . Then , go on to ... Dear , thanks for your present . it's nice&swt . thankyou =] loveyou much ! <3<3<3<3 .
hais , things don't go the way i wan .. like , everything goes different like normal . yiling was right , do you stil love me like you do ? i dunno wth happening but just , i dun doubt your love . but , you really .. aiya , i dunno lah . i dunwan care wat the f. it's happening , but why do i still loveyou as much when you treat me this way ? am i still in you ? nah , it's hard to say . and , i can say . my love for you is always strong ; i dunno why . but i just loveyou .
can you pls tell me , you do&really love me . ensure me .. i don't want end this , let it continue pls ):
now going out alrdy =] bye ...
`GWENNDOLYN -
she needs your love , more .
&the beauty.
&the beauty.
